Father's Day.

Two posts in one day.

Sunday was Father's Day. It also happened to be my nieces birthday party that day so we had to split time there and at his parents house. He really wanted to go golfing with his dad but the weather was crappy so they only hit the driving range.

Because I don't have a job, I can't really afford to get Eric any gifts for any occasion. I have made him a Father's Day gift but he hasn't gotten it yet. I just wish I could get him everything he wanted. He works so hard to provide for us and support me. I know he gets stressed out a lot being the only one with an income right now, plus we are less than a month away from having a baby. I just wish he knew how much I appreciate and love him. He is an amazing man, which, I know a lot comes from his amazing parents. He is just so caring and understanding, loving and protective, funny and spontaneous. So many things to describe him. I am beyond lucky to have him love me and our baby. I will admit that I am not the easiest person to deal with. I am moody, picky, argumentative at times, and emotional. Add on top of that everything that comes along with being pregnant and he is pretty much a saint! He does such a great job putting up with me! haha I just wish I could give him the moon and more. I wish I could truly show him the happiness he brings me and the amount I love him but I know there is nothing I could do or say to convey that in the exact right way.

It is extremely embarrassing not being able to afford to even get him a simple gift or being able to pay for anything, really. I hope he knows I do not take him for granted one bit and I worry every day that something will happen and he will be taken from me. Every day. Sometimes words just aren't enough. Just saying Happy Father's Day to him, wasn't enough for me. I never thought I would find a love like this.

When I met him, he was married and best friends with my boyfriend at the time. Then, a year later my boyfriend goes off to Cali with the Marines and isn't able to attend my brothers wedding in OCMD so he says it's okay if Eric goes with me. Eric and his wife were having troubles for a long time before this, but I did not know about them, he had already moved back home. So, we go to OCMD and Eric finds out that his wife has been less than faithful to him for sure while we are there and still nothing happens between us. We slow danced and he would pull me in closer, and I realized, my heart belonged to someone else. I have always had a crush on him and my relationship with my bf was always rocky at best. He was a liar, cheater, drinker, controller.

So, after a couple months of spending all our time together, I finally told my bf it was over. For good. And I let myself be happy and fall in love with an incredible man. I have never regretted my decision or looked back or wondered "what if". I hope he has done the same, also.

People talk about us getting married a lot. Just because we are having a baby doesn't mean he wants to marry me. Do I hope, one day he does? Absolutely. My heart and mind are made up. He is the one for me. I love him and his whole family. They have welcomed me with open arms and open hearts. I am truly blessed for them. I hope one day our little "family of 3" will all share the same last name. <3 but, for now, I suppose my son sharing his last name is good.


Saturday Eric, his brother Jon, their friends Rick, Mark, Tracey, Shawn, CJ, and I went to Hershey park for Eric's birthday. Saturday at an amusement park in June the weekend after school lets out might not have been the smartest idea, but I think everyone for the most part enjoyed the day!

I wanted to go to there because Eric and I have gone the past 2 summers. Granted the first time we went together, he was there with his wife and I was there with my boyfriend, but still, I like to think of it as a sort of tradition now. Plus, we both love rollercoasters! I spent the majority of the first half of the day sitting on a bench in the shade reading a book while they rode rides. Being pregnant at an amusement park is not a whole lot of fun haha. Of course though, like usual, I got cranky and hot and super swollen and it made for a miserable afternoon. I feel awful because Eric and I had a spat and I am pretty sure I ruined his day because I was in pain. We had a small scare at one point, but everything turned out fine. After lunch, things got much better! We walked around Zoo America and watched the Sea Lion show. Overall, I had a nice day just being there with him. We plan to go back for Hershey Park in the Dark in October with the baby! I am so excited! I think that will definitely become our family tradition. We have been 4 times now together, usually 2 days in a row each time. We have such fun when we are there together. <3