Just a Few Thoughts...

I find myself wondering if I am obsessing over my baby too much and not paying enough attention to Eric. First, is it possible to obsess too much over your child, especially if nothing is wrong? I don't think so. He is perfect. I love interacting with him and making him smile.

Second, Eric is an amazing father and partner. Through all my tiredness, irritability, and general craziness of life right now I never forget to stop and notice him. I see how tired he is, how hard he works, how much love he has for Ben and me, how incredibly sexy he is, how he snores SO loud, how he gets up in the middle of the night to get the baby when he starts fussing so I don't wake up, but I do. I notice that and I smile every time and fall back to sleep. I am truly blessed.

Eric deserves everything he could possibly want and more and sometimes I think that it might be just more attention from me. We talk all the time throughout the day and night but sometimes I find that we talk about the baby...and not us. I feel bad and this is all an adjustment and I know we will fall into a better routine. Things are great though, I just need to show him more how much I care and notice him. 

I am madly in love with my little family and who I am. After years of struggling with my body, my future, and relationships I feel I am finally where I am meant to be and who I am meant to be. I am a fearless and fearful mother learning her new job in life and the most important one at that. I love my new body and embrace it everyday! Stretch marks and touching thighs and all! I am a best friend, partner, lover, supporter, and biggest fan to the one person on this earth I know I am meant to be with. 

I know I sometimes Eric may not get all the attention he deserves or the kind he is needing at that moment in time, but I will never forget to stop and tell him and show him how much I love, appreciate, adore, need, and care for him.